Case Study File: Sudden Endings & Vulnerability: Are Mars and Chiron to blame?

Hello everyone! I’ve been trying to figure out what I can post about and that’s when I realized that it’s a  lot harder to find topics to post about when your life is drama free. So, I decided to reflect back to last year when everything was chaotic. Last summer, I was feeling uneasy about the fact that I couldn’t see my final grade for a course that I had taken in the Spring. Everyone else I knew could see their grade, but I couldn’t see mine. This bothered me and for an entire month, I kept trying to see my grade online. One night, I was clicking every possible tab combination on the school website and I was finally able to see my grade. To my displeasure I failed by one point and failed the class, which as a bonus threw me out of the program. I was in shock and didn’t have a plan B. In a moment my life was forever changed.

Almost one year later I have decided to look at the astrology of that day to look for any patterns that stood out to me. In every chart that I looked at I was able to find a Mars-Chiron interaction, and overall I found them in conjunction, opposition, and square to one another in different charts.

For those who are unfamiliar with Chiron, Chiron is considered to be a dwarf planet (not large enough to be called an actual planet). Chiron in astrology represents themes of teaching, healing, lessons, wisdom, and punishment and reward. Chiron is known as the wounded healer that heals himself by helping others heal.

Mars represents energy, willpower, initiative, impulsiveness, courage, and force. Together a Mars-Chiron interaction will challenge you to use your inner strength and to take the initiative to make changes in your life. What seems like a punishment may actually be a reward, and the lessons and wisdom that you have gained should be taught to others so that you can fully heal from your past disappointment.

When I look at my transits that day I could see the Sun was conjunct Chiron (39′). Chiron was attached to a planet that is related to my identity suggesting that the face that I showed the world hid a wound that was related to my identity. In other words, I was living the life of someone that I did not want to truly be and it was taking a toll on me emotionally.

My next transit was Chiron square Mars (2°20′). Since Chiron is not a planet, I believe most astrologers would allow 1-2 degree orb for it, but since Mars is my special planet I allow the orbs to be a little wider as it has the ability to affect me strongly. (To find your own special planet check out my post: http://wp.me/p2h2re-3V ). Mars was also squaring my North Node (1°1′) suggesting that changes in my life path were coming and that I would need to be courageous, choose a path, and take initiative to make something happen in my life.

In my progressed chart with solar arcs, my solar arc Mars was conjunct Chiron (1°1′).

I also used  tertiary progressions, something I just started to look into. It is hard to find information on the internet about tertiary progressions, but from what I understand so far is that they are a lot like regular progressions (secondary), but it’s supposed to give you a smaller, more focused time frame to time events. Think of secondary progressions as a magnifying glass and tertiary progressions as a microscope.

In my chart of tertiary progressions I found the most interesting interaction of all. Progressed Mars was opposite Chiron (10′), and a grand trine was formed between my natal Chiron and Pluto, and the progressed Moon. Chiron and Pluto working together  speaks of themes of great change, healing, transformation, facing adversity, and self awareness. Throwing the moon into this mix could ultimately mean  that your feeling of security will be compromised, but there is a great amount of emotional growth and healing to be gained.

Overall, each chart had a Mars-Chiron interaction and it was a time in my life where themes of change, emotional healing, and taking initiative were present. As Chiron showed me last year, a door may close, but a window may open. When it seemed like everything I had worked for crumbled around me, I was able to pick up the pieces and build a better future. The message of this post is that you are stronger than you think and to never give up.

-ChocolateBelladonna

 

Case Study File: Unexplained Impulsiveness Part 2

Welcome back to the first edition of the case study files, this is part 2 of Unexplained Impulsiveness. Now let’s pick up where we left off…

T-Square (transit): Mars conjunct Venus in Taurus (36’ orb) opposite Pluto conjunct north node in Scorpio (3°8’). The orb of the opposition is about a half degree. All of this is squaring the vertex in Aquarius with an orb of less than 2°. Mars conjunct Venus gives you the drive to go after what you desire, and makes you impulsive in your love life. Pluto conjunct North node- brings what is in the dark to light, changing your image, goals, and reputation. Since the north node is karmic and we have node connections in our synastry chart, I do believe that our union was supposed to teach us about ourselves and make a change in how we approach relationships. The vertex, is a sensitive point in relationships, and it happens to be the midpoint of this opposition causing a t-square. So let’s put this info together. I impulsively pursued a guy that I liked, being the aggressor, which was something I had never done before. Pluto showed me that me changing behavior from the pursued to the pursuer affected my mindset. I actually enjoyed being the pursuer and it was because I liked the power of controlling the chase, a very Plutonian quality. The square to the vertex just amplified everything, making it affect me more personally. It is also important to say that my Vertex is the exact same degree as my Venus/Pluto midpoint, which means that nothing would get in my way of getting the guy that I wanted. Mars, the planet of action and aggression , and North node, which represents karmic growth, were both squaring this point, therefore activating this midpoint as well. This occurred in my 9^th house, which represents higher education and foreigners, and my third house, which is the house of communication. My communication underwent a Plutonian transformation and I met this individual in a higher educational institute. He also had a different cultural background than me. (Look at the chart above at the circles and squares to see where the t-square is taking place.

Transit Uranus and Pluto were both on my critical degree in my chart, the 11°. I call it the critical degree because it affects many personal points such as my Sun, Moon, and all of my angles. The Sun in my natal chart is at the apex of a YOD with my moon and AC. Uranus on the exact point of my sun caused me to step outside of my comfort zone of how I like to identify myself. It caused me to be more assertive in what I want in life and this reflected in my personality. It led me to be more assertive in matters of the heart, where I tended to be more laid back. My sun is in the 8^th house, the house of sex, power, transformation and death.

Pluto was also at the 11° mark, directly squaring my sun. Pluto is forcing me to reinvent myself and get rid of old patterns that no longer serve me. This aspect also forces you out of your comfort zone, and the harder you fight against it, the harder your life will be. I actually complied with Pluto and learned something about myself. Pluto is in my 4^th house aspecting my 8^th house sun. The 4^th house represents your childhood and the emotional patterns that evolved from your upbringing. Pluto is attempting to cleanse all those skeletons from my closet and change my attitudes about romance, sex, power, which would transform me into a better person.

Jupiter quincunx Pluto (Transit)- This aspect had an orb of 17’. Jupiter in aspect to Pluto makes the power of Pluto more grand and effective, due to it being an expansive planet. This can be the reason Pluto played a big role in these aspects. This occurred in my 3^rd and 10^th houses, which affected my communication in social situations.

Moon quincunx Saturn (transit and progression)- The transit had an orb of 1°42’ and the progression had an orb of 35’. This transit highlights emotional patterns and security. It means that you feel a lack of support from others and feel emotionally isolated. The progression affects my 5^th and 12^th houses. This affects my hidden feelings about romance. The transit affects my 5^th and 10^th houses. This affects my romantic endeavors in social settings. Needless to say that I didn’t feel supported when my little romance was abruptly cut short.

Chiron opposite AC (transit)- This aspect had an orb of 38’. This aspect makes a person determined to have companionship. This is evident in me reaching out to him online when he didn’t show up to class.

To sum this information up we should look at recurrent themes. The 5^th and 10^th houses played the biggest roles so something significant was bound to happen to me socially and romantically. Pluto and Mars were major players in the events, and what really makes them significant is that Mars is the ruler of my sun and Pluto rules my moon. Major transformations and realizations were to occur from my short relationship.

If you have any questions or comments about this case study, or would like to provide information to analyze a situation in your life, please feel free to leave a comment.

I hope you enjoyed case study file: Unexplained Impulsiveness.

-ChocolateBelladonna

Case Study File: Unexplained Impulsiveness Part 1

Hi everyone, I’m back with a new addition to Psychological Astrology. I call this the case study files. Lately, I have realized that the events of my life could be foreseen if I pay attention to my transits. However, this is a difficult task to do when everyday life gets in the way. I always seem to pick up on astrology’s cues after the fact. For example, I’d realize that a day was filled with nonstop conflict, such as arguments, pettiness, and maybe even an altercation. I began to ask myself, why? There has to be an explanation so I went hunting for one.

In the case study files I will be pointing out the reasons that certain emotions overtake a person’s rational thinking. I will get to the causes, describe their effects, and help people be aware when there’s a red flag in their chart.

For the first post I wanted to use an example of my day of extreme impulsiveness. I could not think before I spoke or acted. It was a very spontaneous day and I cannot rationalize what I did and why I did it. All I know is that no one could have talked me out of it.

My day of impulse was May 14, 2013. I started my day normal and got to my class early, it was the final class that I would be attending for the semester. I was hoping to exchange phone numbers with a guy that I liked in the class. We had been hanging out and getting along very well, but to my disappointment he wasn’t in class. He has never been late, but I was hoping that he was. It turned out that he was absent and so was my other friend. This left me in class alone, bored, with a whole lot of impulsive energy to expend. In the middle of class I got the idea to message him on Facebook, and I also reached out to my other friend who was absent. When he messaged me back, he basically said that we couldn’t hang out outside of school, and that he had a girlfriend. He said that he likes me, but doesn’t want to spend extra time with me because I’m a threat to his relationship. Basically, I got dumped by someone I wasn’t dating. In the most abrupt manner, all of our flirtation came to an end, and all of a sudden he mentions he has a girlfriend, which was news to me. In this situation things happened really fast so let’s look at the transits, progressions, and solar arcs to make sense of this.

Mars conjunct Chiron (solar arc)- This aspect had a 5’ orb. This aspect can cause you to react aggressively or impulsively when emotions are running high. This occurred in my 11^th house, which represents friends and group activities. In my case I was really looking forward to seeing him and expanding our relationship outside the classroom, however, I was very unsettled that he didn’t show up, especially since he’s never absent.

Mars opposite Uranus (progression)- This aspect had a 2°17’ orb. This aspect can cause unexpected conflicts to arise. It can also cause you to be rebellious and feel a need to break free. We’re both Mars in Gemini people so we might have both been affected by this aspect. This opposition occurred in my 11^th house and the cusp of my 5^th house. There was tension between my friends and group activities, and romantic relationships and leisure.

Mars square Sun (progression)- This aspect had a 13’ orb. This aspect causes irritability, due to obstacles appearing in the way of what you are trying to accomplish. There is very little chance of you compromising during this transit. This occurred in my 8^th and 10^th house. The 8^th house represents sex, power, and death. The 10^th house represents social success. On this day I had a plan to exchange numbers and plan a day that we can hang out, but he was uncharacteristically absent that day, which made me feel unsettled. Obviously, the death of this relationship was inevitable.

Venus quincunx Uranus (progression)- This aspect had a 50’ orb. This aspect causes romances to start and/or end quickly. It’s like a spark or a magnet that draws people together and creates excitement. This occurred in my 10^th house and on the cusp of my 5^th house. This means that I would feel a romantic connection to someone that I met in a social setting.

This is the end of the Case Study File: Unexplained Impulsiveness Part 1. Be sure to check out Part 2 for more in depth insight and the conclusions drawn at the end of the case study.